感触

一幅画、终究是一幅画。
再漂亮、终究还是不切实际。

一个人的伪装，又有谁会明白。
看到的表面、可以是真、但真正的感触又有谁懂。
真真假假、假假真真、信与不信、爱与不爱、放手与不放，一切就在一瞬间。


Moral of the story:

Even when u re unhappy, u still have to act to be happy...
How painful ur heart is... U still have to hold on tight...
No emotion should be displayed...

或许离开会好点。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。



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千言万语，也不知从何说起。

百感交集的感觉，是难以形容。

我想剪头发了。剃掉它吧

剃掉所有所有所有的一切

从新开始。

我从来不知我是那么爱哭的一个人。

现在怎么的几个月来一次，什么意思啊。

压力太多。 其实没人给过我 压力。

长大不好玩，好烦，好累。

我可以回去吗？ 我可以去找爸爸吗？ 我好想他。 他为何那么早走。
我还没认识你呢。你还没教我很多人生大道理。你还没给我你的知识，你还没教我怎么面对很多不同的东西。你怎么可以那么早走？

我说我不介意，我不介意。每次有人说起。我都会伤心。以前的我不太会，因为你从小就给我打过这种疫苗。以前至少我知道你总会过段时候出现。。可是，疫苗过期很久了。。我去哪里找你啊？

我不能和任何人说，不能 。 家里的人，我不要他们伤心。朋友，我不要造成他们的困扰，也不想成为以后他们对我和家人的不利。

我面对太多背叛了，我不能藏受了。

爸爸，我还没长大，你回来吧。。。。

我很想你。。。

Day 3 & 4

Lols... the promised made to post daily failed on day 3. Anyway, will post it together instead.

Business
Was arranging and clearing the business folders, found the plans that was made initially before the store opens. However, looking at it... What was planned before was totally different from what the store is doing now. Thinking of it.... the past...before looking into the costs and expenditures for those production, etc... Those plans were made too ambitiousness...

Personal
It is the raining period in Cambodia now. Many heavy rains, strong wind and bad flood causing many troubles and problems to everyone living in this country. The city, Phnom Penh consider better than many villages, though many trees fall last week due to the strong wind and heavy rain on the very first day of this rainy season.

CarrotOrangexxx

Day 2

Business 
Went back to Mum's clothing store to help out today... While mum comes with the renovator to discuss on the installment of the metal bar, etc for hanging of LARGE lighting fixtures. However, every solution seems rather not relevant nor convenient to be done.

Anyway, I realised... as you grew older, the more less likely the people around you will be willing to teach you nor guide you in everything you do in life. Another word, maybe "self-fish"..

Life
"Thankful mind" and "respect" that might be really what i am lacked of.

Day 1

Its been awhile since the last time this blog is being updated. I should totally start to set myself to blog daily.. on all the things and feelings I had been through for each day of my life.

Business
The Lighting store have been open for almost half a year. To be honest, it is doing average... or.. just a low average. I know I shouldn't expect too much..since we just open.. having today result should consider good for a newly born company in the homogeneous product industry. However, thinking of the importation, all those utility cost, wages.... etc..... let me come to a conclusion.... "As a kid, 100 Dollars is a lot.... many can be purchased or spend at.... However, as you grow older... facing all those bills... wages... expenses.... 100 dollar seems rather TOO little to be seen."
*complex mind on the pricing on those products.

MONEY... MONEY... MONEY.... @.@

Personal
I have been listening to YES 933 lately in the store. Felt like back to my last few years of life in Singapore. To be honest, all these emotions came from the musics that FM YES 933 been playing lately. All those beautiful musics.... mostly those from my years.... (p.s. sounds old)... do bring back many memories..... both good and bad... :)

Msg to de Special u*
18 days past... no contact no nth... I think I know how much I worth in ur life... Anyway, saw this video yesterday on youtube. wanna share to you... but.... still betting how long will you take to contact me instead... (p.s. I know I am dumb)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nPloAGfn_A

Being the invisible

A sudden feel of... not belonging anywhere... not in de family.. not among my friends... wishing to be invisible.. no mistake will be made. No worries to worry bout.. nth... to be upset of. Just be myself. In my own world. Still around everyone but be de silent one... b3 there yet no one can see.. as I knew. I had always been de invisible one. So. Being a official one. At least I wouldnt feel upset or disappointed. As I know... I wouldnt have or will expect any returns or anything...... life sucks....

心都碎了。。。哈哈。。。

我一直在想。。。我觉得我出生是为了什么?
为了替别人着想? 我累了。。
有个算命师,算到我有克父命! 哈哈。。
以前的梅晓眉 =着说。。。 当我晓得事情,明白事理时,就会眉克 父 (梅)。
哈哈, 天大的笑话啊。。是啊, 18岁,那年,父亲就离我们而去。。。哈哈。。。真会算。。。。算吧,算吧。。那么爱算。。。哈哈。。

还有多一个。。。终身大事。。哈哈。。他也算了。。。 唉~~~懒得说。。。。
就到此一笔吧。。。
人生累。。。。 我还有我的妈妈呢。。。 不能自私的说离开就离开。。。
再累,也要为了妈妈而活。。。这是我对爸爸的承诺。。。

打勾勾咯。。。我要像爸爸那样爱着妈妈。。所然我知道我的爱不会比得上爸爸对妈妈的那种爱。。但,我会用我满满的爱,一辈子的爱去爱妈妈的。。。

最终,还是亲情可贵啊。。。。

别的什么都能背叛。。。哈哈。。友情一样,兄弟情一样。。。。 人生真可悲。。。。哈哈哈。。。