Last entry till the next time

this would be the last entry im goin to update till im back to singapore again in 29dec2006.
this Sat,181106.
i would be flying back to Cambodia.

at first i was quite excited to go back, however this few days don't bear to leave.
maybe it was because i would be missing Youtube and the love stories tat i would be able to borrow it from the library.lols.
it do sounds a little stupid sometimes,but it might really be the causes of making me unwilling to go back.lols.

today,my mum would be coming to singapore.
she will be arriving Singapore at 2110.
looking forward to fetch her from there.but anyway,more looking forward to my cousin,Janice would be willing to go with me.>.<
anyway today,Janice would be taking her LAST* o'level paper!

yesterday,went to watch The Grudge 2 with Xinhui~ah bu.
it was scary.this was the first time in life realising watching movie is quite tiring and noise.lols.
tiring-it was because through out the whole movie,from the start till the end.
i would be able to jump off from my seat as it's SCARY*!lols.
noise-there's loads of ppl wisphering,they might be trying to make themselve not to be so afraid.lols.

after the movie ends,ah bu and i decided to go to the basan-malam[if im not wrong.lols]
i went there and buy loads of things expecially,stickers.
i was thinking of buying it for my dearest younger sister.>.<
met Jolie there too but didn't really talk too much.lols.

after finish the walk in basan-malam,ah bu wanted to bring me to one playground.
but,it was kind of far.so we decided to go somewhere nearby.
we sat down a side in the playground and have our 'gals talk'.
lols.enjoy it.cuz 'gals talk' always the BEST* and POPULAR* among girls.lols.
as it's the time whereby,we girls share our own little secrets.>.<

i supposed i would ends here.
will be back on 29dec2006 to update.lols.

Gonna miss SINGAPORE* and friends lot!>.<
miss me too neh!=)
i'll come back and see at tagboard sometimes,as i would be coming online somedays to check my mails and stuffs.:]

*.CarrotOrange.*

Green Environmetal Fashion Design Competition

finally back to my normal holidays life le!
free from lessons and free from CCA.

today is the competition day.
early in the morning at 0715,everyone are expected to reach school by tat time.
when u see their eyes,u can find tiredness in them.lols.

been reading my storybook and listening to my mp3 all the way till expo.
the fashion competition is in expo2.
on the way there,as usual get scolded by Mrs Lau for being noisy when she's on the phone helpping us to order breakfast.>.<
Thanks for ordering it for us!:) we appreciate it loads!

been a real busy and tired day.
at 9,Caining and Cassandra went up to the stage as they will be the one who's representing our school.=)

at 1330,the real competition of modeling starts.
everyone were doing real well!
every schools design were real good!>.<

anyway,there's also alot more competition today held at expo.lols.
around 3plus or 4,finally it reaches the most nervious period.>.<
the PRIZE GIVING*.

but we didn't get any prize!=(
we losed!

but after all,all of us have done a very GOOD job!
praise urself!>.<
next year,u gals and boys gonna GAMBETA!
dun lose le.at least get one CONSOLATION* pize okay??=)

anyway,everyone during this period really work really hard!
so everyone finally it ends!
even we didn't win but WE DID OUR BEST!>.<
this period eveeryone have done a good job!
expecially the DESIGNERS and MODELS!=)
so hereby wanna say a THANKS* to everyone in green club!
holiday starts now!=)

end wid upload of a few videos and pictures.
took currently.green club and stuffs.>.<
it's real blur,so hereby wanna apologize to u guys.=)
expo expertition
Designers and Models-Designs by Sembawang Secondary School.

Okay, i supposed i will upload the video next time.
as my laptop now is real lag!!!
think is save too many things le..
esp the video!>.<
apologize for tat.


*.CarrotOrange.*

personal stuffs

went to a website and tried something out.
and thinks tat it's real cool.lols
try it too.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

*.CarrotOrange.*

Wonderful Day and Night!

aloha~
im finally back to update my blog entry.lols.

these few days really lazy and also kind of busy 'youtubing' shows.
finish watchin zhong ji yi ban and wei xiao pasta.=)
watching:tokyo juliet,lian ai nui wang and lao shu ai da mi.

fallin in love wid fahrenheir!=P
and also gonna miss WEI XIAO PASTA!=(
therefore,i wanna buy part2*!

have been busy wid the fashion design competition too.
there's picture taken on one of the rehersal not long ago.=)
everyone were so good!and the design are real nice and pretty!

anyway,even if our school didn't get any prize for our design but after all.
WE GAVE OUR BEST*!

competition will falls on this coming tuesday at expo.
not too sure which hall but wish tat ppl would be able to come and support us ba.=P

wednesday and thursday will be de expetition.
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yesterday was Xinhui's 19th birthday!>.<>.< asked Mailing and Ah bu whether they want to come over to my house and watch one show which is: HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL.
end up didn't watch finish it,even not yet reach disc2.lols.

went down to Seletaris's condo baby pool and chit-chat but end up splashing water at one another.lols.

have a wonderful night with the both of them!
GIRLS TALK* night!lols.

wonder if they tat did enjoy themself too?
becus of yesterday night,Mailing and me.
from not real known by each other till quite known of each other.lols

>.<>

btw!i have completed on my custom and jiaqi's too!
gonna thanks Caining for helping out.

*.CarrotOrange.*

quiz

Message: Can you name 11 people you can think of right off the top of your head?
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 11 people...
This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first...
No Cheating!!

1. Dara
2. Diya
3. Jiaqi
4. Xinglin
5. Sukma
6. Xuewen
7. Jolie
8. Jasmine
9. Kelly
10. YongXin
11. Deziree

How did you meet 10?
-in the same class when i started my secondary school life.

What would you do if you had never met 6?
-life will be kind of BORING.

Have you ever seen 4 cry?
-yeah!

What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?
-i would be quite happy but it seems to be very impossible.

Do you think 1 is pretty?
-PRETTY?can this used to descride a guy?=.=

Tell me something about number 11.
-she's getting more and more prettier.>.

How do you know 8?
-erm.in my secondary school life,same class.>.<>
What's 7's favorite color?
-blue.

What would you do if 2 confessed he liked you?
-it's can't be.unless is slibling love.=)[HE'S MY ELDER BROTHER.=.=]

Fact about 9.
-very cute girl.like to SMILE*,quite open minded.>.<>.<>Is 2 single?
-im not too sure.dun really talk to him often when my another elder brother called me.=.=

How much does 3 mean to you?
-erm,one of those who i would care for and also one of those who would be able to bear my ~COLD JOKES~

What do you think about 1?
-a very nice guy.the BEST* elder brother i ever have in this life.treat me the best.>.< What's the best thing about number 8?
-intro very GOOD and NICE jobs for me to do.^.^\/

What do you dislike about number 10?
-nth bah.she's jus too GOOD* le!>.<
11 people that I want them to do;
Lirong.
Xuewen.
Jianhui.
Xinglin.
Guixin.
Linmin.
Xinhui.
Geraldine.
Yongxin.
Preya.
Yixiang.

*.CarrotOrange.*

**Story** Story from a husband[to my married and unmarried friends]

To my married and unmarried friends:
This is a very touching story, please read it slowly, I've read it more than twice.

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms.
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms.
The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat.
My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms.
So I carried her into our home.

She was then plump and shy.
I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water:
we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money.
When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb.

She was a civil servant.
Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time.
Our kid was studying in aboarding school.
Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy.

But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes
Dew came into my life.
It was a sunny day.
I stood on a spacious balcony.

Dew hugged me from behind.
My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love.

This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs.
Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife.
When we were just married, my wife said,Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.
But I couldn't help doing so.
I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to?
select some furniture, O.K?

I've got something to do in the company.
Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her.
At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it.
No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly, she was a good wife.
Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.
I was sitting in front of the TV.
The dinner was ready soon.

Then we watched TV together.
Or, I was lounging before the computer,visualizing Dew's body.
This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do?

She stared at me for a few seconds without a word.
Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her.
I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out.

Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her.
She seemed to have got some hint.
She gently smiled at my subordinates.
But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.?
Then we live together.
I nodded.
I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand.
I've got something to tell you, I said.
She sat down and ate quietly.
Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth.
But I had to let her know what I was thinking.
I want a divorce.
I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I'm serious.
I avoided her question.
This so-called answer made her angry.

She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
That night, we didn't talk to each other.
She was weeping.
I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage.

But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces.
I felt a pain in my heart.

The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.
But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see.
To me her cry was actually a kind of release.

The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients.
I saw her writing something at the table.
I fall asleep fast.

When I woke up, I found she was still there.
I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions:
she didn't want anything from me,but I was supposed to give her one month time before divorce.and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible.

Her reason was simple:
our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?
This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me.
I nodded and said, I remember.

You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce.
From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile.
I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.
I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.
She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd.

No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully.
Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed.
We even treated each other as a stranger.

So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.
Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms.
His words brought me a sense of pain.
From the bedroom to the sitting room,then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.

She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son.
I nodded, feeling somewhat upset.
I put her down outside the door.
She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily.
She leaned on my chest.
We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.
I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time.

I found she was not young anymore.
There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished.
Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms.
The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking,etc.
I nodded.
The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her.
Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.
She was picking her dresses.
I was waiting to carry her out.

She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one.
Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger.
I smiled.
But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger.

I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.
Again, I felt a sense of pain.
Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.
Our son came in at the moment.

Dad, it's time to carry mum out.
He said.
To him,seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life.
She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.

I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute.
I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sittingroom, to the hallway.
Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally.
I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.
Our son had gone to school.
She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.
I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision.
I walked upstairs.

Dew opened the door.
I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce.
I'm serious.
She looked at me, astonished.

The she touched my forehead.
You got no fever.
She said. I moved her hand off my head.
Sorry, Dew, I said,I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce.

My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.

So I have to say sorry to you.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up.
She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.

I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite.
The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card.
I smiled and wrote,I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.
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isn't this touching?
from now on appreciate the one u LOVEs* now!

*.CarrotOrange.*