Karenn* / CarrotOrange
Karen CHHUN Seav Mey
First Year Student
University of NEW SOUTH WALES
140391|18years old
karenchhun_36@hotmail.com
Cambodian/Khmer

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Daydream too much
Dun go to back before 11pm
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Uncontrol temper

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Tears been falling from my eyes onto my cheeks.....
whenever I am alone..
I know why and I know I shouldn't...
I do know that I must not and can not cry infront of anyone..especially infront of my family...
So...I choose to drop tears when I am alone..

I know no one would read my blog anymore... only those who care for me would..or even those who just happened to be bored..

I am really suffering....but I know...my dad is suffering more.. so I shouldn't be complaining and shouldn't show it out to him nor my family... this will make him and them more stress and tired...
Whenever tears came rolling down my face..I would wish someone would be there to help me, give me a hug or at least listen to me.. but...none... I know there're people who really are caring and worrying for me... but... sometimes... I just don't want to trouble them too much..even I know that they are not only my friends but CLOSEST friends.. but I still can't.. As..whenever I turn to someone... I am either rejected or ignored... I know they are busy..especially when we are all university students now..having lots of assignments and group works due soon..

Really feel that everyone is moving on..but I had been standing at the same spot for a long long time...

I am really tired and............upset.....but I can't really do anything.. but I know I have to try..but I am afraid that I don't have the energy to even try...

Labels: Hot Winter

Firstly, I would need to apologize to everyone who had leave a message on my tagboard and I would not be able to reply them on the tagboard itself...As it would be difficult for everyone to go down my tagboard and look for my reply right?hahas....So I had decided to reply it here~=)


To Huy: hahas...sorry about it...but really~no money~=( if you don't mind, you can sponser me one~hahas.=) anyway...your english really improved lots~ hahas...is that suppose to a break for you? i thought it should a study weeks/month? hahas...but hope that your prelim results are good and also all the best for your o'level! Must score well,yeah?=) my school life? read the later post~you would know~ hais...

To Jolie: hahas..why do you think that i replied to the wrong person?hahas...is it becus i kept replying other's messages to your moblie?hahas..(>.<) sorry..but maybe i had replied the wrong person..=) but now..i wouldn't be able to reply as my credit is back to ZERO! hahas.. erm..im not too sure i would be able to go online again~actually i do go online~but whenever i went online~no one is there~=)


To Jenny: hahas~SEE THIS! is this better off?hahas..=) really miss you gals alot!and also not forgetting~ah huy~hahas.=) erm...you guys really make me smile and laugh alot~ i felt im not worthwhile here~ =(


To Xiao shi (Yongxin): CHEN XIAO SHI!!!!!=) really miss calling out your name like that..hais... hahas...=) thanks for your support~really!!!! =)i will really jiayou over here!=) really miss you gals...missing 4e1'o7... all those memories we had in singapore and also not forgetting SEM MAMA!=) hahas..


To Xinglin: Zhuzhuling ar~hahas....i also wish to go back~but main thing is now...no time and no money~ hais...if i want to go anywhere i would need to saveup the money on my own~my brothers would be asking me to SAVE! and tell me that..all his money had spent on my~now he have nothing much~hahas!=) but when im goin back to singapore...i would inform you!!! don't worry~=)


Secondly, i think that only my truth friends from Singapore and Cambodia would treasure reading those entries that i had updated....hais.~ Maybe im too sensitive and i shouldn't be asking too much from all friends im having now in Australia... But im really feeling very lost~ no sense of secure~ hais~=(


Thirdly, I might be going back to cambodia for a short period...as my family is applying for visa and the Australia immigration want me to leave Australia in order to give me, my visa~ hais...which also mean that i might need to give up my Foundation Studies- semester2 and go back. Thus, I might need to come back and join the other steam semester2....


when i received this news, i still dropped tears for them* but now i think it does not really worth while to some people~ hais... anyway...i think im thinking too much~ ignore what i said earlier~ just looking for somewhere to "vomit" out all my unhappiness...suddenly found out that i don't really have any one to "vomit" all my unhappiness out now~ really miss all bestfriends i have in singapore~ all those memories~ =( if i were to choose family, no friends...choose friends, no family~ hais... hope you guys understand what i mean~


Lastly, it seems like...BC5'o8 is going to break up soon~hahas...seems like..everyone is leaving~ Like yesterday, Jason had left Australia for China to visit his grandfather~ hais... though i know that he would be coming back in 10days time but...i have feeling that i might be leaving before he came back~ he's really a very good friend that i do not want to lose~=(


I think that all i want to update on~ really tired...headaches are coming back~


Once again~really thanks alot to my friends in singapore to be so supportive!=) i don't regret having you guys as my bestest FRIENDs in singapore~=)


Karenn*

Labels: It DOES NOT* matter how slowly you go, so long as you DO NOT* stop - Confucius

Hey everyone~ Finally I am back to update this ROTTEN BLOG~ WHICH SEEMS TO BE A FOREST NOW~hahas.. but now im trying to cut down all those branches that's are round this blog~hahas..(if u understand what i mean, if not, it's alright.=))

Anyway~i know that if i upload this image~JENNY SOK will DEFINITELY KILL ME!hahas~ but it's a very good memory for me to remember right?hahas (right? JENNY~) really missing those friends i have in singapore~ hope that they had not forgotten me yet... these few days have been reading a lot~ *i believed that many people would be damn surprise to see that~i manage to read a almost 5cm thick english book~hahas~ it's totally impossible for me in the past but now~i manage to~which seems to be miracle~hahas.

I had just finished my Semester1 examinations and I had received my results~not as good as I had aimed for~ though teachers and friends have been very encouraging~my brother~(=.=) have been kind *discouraging* but i know that he's doing all these for my own good~hais... This is my very first time feeling of "giving up hope" in my studies...though I do not mean every subjects but there's one subject that I totally feel like giving up on... BUT it stands the most credit in my total GPA. hais~ *having the feeling to burst out into tears*.=(

However, I can't give up because now I do not have time to feel depress~Time seems to be out for me~Semester2 days seem to be running fast(just like a maraton). Hais~=( Semester2 examinations are round the corner~it's an examination that would determine whether I can get into Uni~I do not want to stay in this foundation building anymore! I want to move to the main Uni buliding~ The Business Building~!

Do wish my all the best yeah?=) All the best to everyone too~ Friends in singapore~ not too sure whether u have gotten back your results but still wishing the best of luck to all of you too~=) O'level students and N'level students~ STUDY HARD do not go out too often! all those hard work u give now~would really worthwhile in future!=)

Karenn*CarrotOrange

Labels: they who LOSEs today may WIN tomorrow* ~Migual de Cervantes

Labels: Talent is a gift from heaven*

Please don't mind the picture. That are just some pictures that taken by my Er Ge, Kevin, when we have nothing much to do when my Da Ge, Steven, wasn't around at home. (*.*)

That's my beloved boots, that I DARE NOT WEAR IT OUT. This is because of...it looks totally like a COW-skin. (o.o) NEW TOP! TBY- to be young- japan brand.

It's been a week ever since the last entry that I had posted. In just one week time, many things had happened....
*Si Chuan-China- got earthquakes.
-> many people die during the natural disaster. "(

First attack was on 12th May 2oo8 and the second attack was on 17th May 2oo8 (if I am not wrong). What we should do now, not to feel upset but to start donating money to China! (>.<) Also, to pray hard that there would be more and more survivors being save!
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Labels: Autumn...will be beatiful?

It's currently autumn now in Australia, Sydney. However, I seems to be in Winter instead. (>.<) Actually it's the coat that is with the fur that makes it look thick, but it's not thick at all. (-.+) Anyway, this is a picture i took in my family's Australia shop with the MOST popular/attractive swan behind me. (^^.) **GROWING FAT**

Feeling Depress..............
I am not too sure whether am I thinking too much again or it's the fact... This few days, I keep having the feeling/thought that I am really ignoring, in the sense of kept bothering friends around me. (>.<) Or should I say that I feel that they thinks/feels that I am ignoring. Sometimes I might feel that I am really extra. Like..when I treat a person as my closest friend but she doesn't, instead, she treats me totally as a NORMAL friend. I really dislike/scare of this feeling. I do not want to have history repeating again in my life. Especially unhappy memory. A memory that I had never talk about in my own life. ( No offense to anyone. *Peace*)

Sometimes, these problems would causes me to think "why do we, humans have to make friends in our life?" and "why do I need to treat her so good when she treats me like a friend that can easily forgotten?"

Trying to stop thinking so much.............................

Missing those days we were once together.....
Really misses those days I had in Singapore with both my house mates and schoolmates. How I wish that there would be a time machine that would be able to bring me back to the days that I miss most........

( There are some people giving comments that my font are too small, thus, I am using LARGEST font. )

Karenn*CarrotOrange

Labels: Trying to Find the Feeling* of LOVE back.....

Actually, I had done this survey test a year ago but once again, I am trying this to see whether there's any change and there's really some little changes. hahas. =) This proved that people would change easily. (-.+)

However, I still thinks that the first attempt is more likely to be truth for myself. (>.<)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Karen*CarrotOrange

Labels: Changing* might not be a Bad thing.=)