***sad***

hi...mi again...one week ago come update...now one week later come online...quite good liao leh...
well...today is feeling sad again...
first...can't go out...
papa early in the morning called my aunt said what...don't let me go out today...or even this few days....
wa piang leh...i still wan my life to be meaningful...dun wan boring lifestyle...idiot sia...
but i know he is jus worried bout me...but i think this is over protected...
so like this...today can't go to my church service idiot sia...
then today...jus feeling kind of "fan"!!!
dun know why...
the feeling of dieing is back again...
hai~~~
well...i patch with jian hui liao...i dunno why yesterday jian hui suddenly told xuewen that we patch back liao...then xuewen started to say this...:
ah ma!!!!why never tell me?!?!?!

then i also gong gong...well...then yesterday i fall down on the floor of my classroom during lit...haha...then a few of the boys and girls who standing or sitting at the back saw me fallen down...haha...so funny leh that time...

then yesterday...steven in school said jian hui and yixiang become gay...funny leh...haha...
then last night sms him what...then he said that he will prove to me...that he is not a gay...
oh my...i think of sumthing...like a little prevent hoh...
oh my!!!!now then i think it is a little prevent leh...
ok lah...dun say liao...later more prevent...
then today...really very the "fan"
bout love again!!!!sian sian sian...
that's all i can say...:'(
hai~~~~ok lah...dun say liao...later i cry out...
bb...enjoy your weekend...

***sad....sad....sad...***

hiya....quite a number of days never come and update my blog liao...
this whole for me jus like very the unlucky...jus dun say liao lah...
trying to forget a person is really very hard...but fallen in love with someone is easy...
maybe at the very begining i shouldn't had agreed to stead with him...
it only make me feel more hurt...
if really there is someone else love him or he love...
i will totally let go...as what the who said....if you can't control a thing...you have to let go...
i really wish that i can let go...really!!!i don't want to be in this love thing!!!it can only hurt me...
the longer time i take to forget him....it means that i will get a longer pain...a very dip pain...in my heart...
now having the feeling of jumping down from my block...really a very stong feeling...
cuz living this world is worst than die...
maybe i live this world...more people will be happier...
really very happy...

***sian***

ello...aiyo...so sian leh...today...
hai~~~suddenly no one sms me...
every night no one to talk to on the phone that will make you fallen a sleep...
hai~~~
then today...in the class...whole day not feeling well...so bad leh...
hai~~~then i started to feel sad too...cuz last year when i not feeling well...JH will care for me...
but suddenly like i'm all alone...hai~~~
say what: i will know how to take care of myself...[dull shit men...]
who say i can!?!?! :'( so sad...
today English, Literature & History teacher no in school...they were with the Sec3 cuz today Sec3 is going for camping at the don't know what farm lah....
hehe...carmen not around...feel so funny leh...-_-''' oh no!!!start to miss carmen...hehe...
actually today got History test one...ya..we did have...but is open book one...haha...so good men...but the main problem is: I DIDN'T DO THE LAST QUESTION!!!
ohmy!!!!don't say liao lah....haha....
then during Literature lesson...a male malay teacher came in...then hai~~~i not feeling good then my TABLE HAD BEEN CHANGE AWAY!!!SO ANGRY...
then suddenly i scream to my classmate...sorry leh...wish that you guys will forgive me...
then after school jus now...we have to stay back cuz we had to take down notes for the next week Gepgraphy test...hehe...
then you know what...during the history test...jenny called leh...wao lao!!!!so angry...
asked me want to meet her anot...cuz she want to go sun plaza...then how i know that jia qi want to buy the hair bend.....then when we got to the second level...we met her!!!!sian liao!!!
then jus now leh...a sec 2 so called the 4th gangster...in level2...-_-'''like this also can leh....haha...
act gang only....-_-'''
the guy alway ask ask ask jenny where she stay...then i scolded him that stop asking lah....
then reached home...the siao siao...jenny tell me that that so called gangster...want to hit me up tomorrow...siao leh...
before met him...i met JH...but we jus walk pass each other...didn't say hi or anything...so sad leh...:'(
ok lah i will end here...go and sleep first...so tired...ok lah...enjoy your day leh...ok see ya....bb...

***happy new year***

Happy New Year!!!
the first day without him:
when i'm with friends...will not think a percent of him...
when i'm not with any friends...suddenly thought of him alot...do whatever things will think of him...
hey!!!if i suddenly flirt around don't blame me...jus like me go...i'm really having alot of stress...
maybe i doesn't really have stress at all...
if you guys mind...jus think that i'm really really change...change into a person you never know...
i said i doesn't want any reason...but i can lie to you all...but i can't lie to my own heart...
tell you what...i said that i will not drop a tear out...but i did!!!i can't believe that...i said that...but in the end i can't do it...how i wish that the princple of my school let me have one more month of holiday...
by the way do you guys agree this phrase??
being a human is worst than a dead person...
don't you think so...now then i know why shi ning chosen that choose...
as she don't want anymore sadness...no more stress...
hai~~~at first i really think that shi ning had made a bad choose...but now...i know it...it is a good choose...
hai~~~i think that life is really doesn't really mean to me...haha...
don't think that i can't take jian hui the break up...
haha...i'm not...really...is that i have too much other things to think...
LIFE ISN'T MEANINGFUL TO ME...
haha...think i'm really mad...
maybe...jus now i have taken beer...
haha...shhhhh don't tell the police or what...
hai~~~
there is really alot of question want to ask...like...
*why am i in sembawang sec???
*why didn't i choose canberra sec instead???
*how can i go into express???
*why i don't choose NA instead of Express???
*why am i in 1e1 then next year still be with the same classmate???
*why did i got into 1e1???why not 1e2???
and many more...
i had been thinking alot of question out of my brain...
ok lah...i will end here...
wish that i can forget about him as soon as possible...bye...