Everyone seems to be moving on...but I am left behind..

Tears been falling from my eyes onto my cheeks.....
whenever I am alone..
I know why and I know I shouldn't...
I do know that I must not and can not cry infront of anyone..especially infront of my family...
So...I choose to drop tears when I am alone..

I know no one would read my blog anymore... only those who care for me would..or even those who just happened to be bored..

I am really suffering....but I know...my dad is suffering more.. so I shouldn't be complaining and shouldn't show it out to him nor my family... this will make him and them more stress and tired...
Whenever tears came rolling down my face..I would wish someone would be there to help me, give me a hug or at least listen to me.. but...none... I know there're people who really are caring and worrying for me... but... sometimes... I just don't want to trouble them too much..even I know that they are not only my friends but CLOSEST friends.. but I still can't.. As..whenever I turn to someone... I am either rejected or ignored... I know they are busy..especially when we are all university students now..having lots of assignments and group works due soon..

Really feel that everyone is moving on..but I had been standing at the same spot for a long long time...

I am really tired and............upset.....but I can't really do anything.. but I know I have to try..but I am afraid that I don't have the energy to even try...