***dunno what is the feeling now***

hi...back to update liao...
now the time is 00:51a.m. and now is NEW YEAR EVE!!!
yeap!!!then what now...
YEAR 2005 i got a present liao!!!
you guys know what is it???
a break from jian hui!!!
haha...i want to say sorry to my shepherd that i had kept it from her for a long long time...really very sorry...carmen!!!
well...i want to tell all jian hui the god grand-daughter, god grand-son, god daughter and god son...whose who call me..."ah ma" or "ah bu" dun call me liao!!! as i no longer one... ok???
don't ask me why....what happened...or about the both of us ok???
i will not answer and don't worry that i cried...
i can say that i didn't cry!!!
really!!! hehe...=) see i still smiling leh...
hehe...=) believe me!!!;-)
i'm not angry with jian hui instead i want to thanks jian hui alot...for telling me that...ya...we will be frenz forever really...
and also i had a good news... i jus now sms my shepherd then she replied me... and she said that she had forgive me...thanks carmen!!! thanks for forgiving me!!!
really thanks alot!!!
ohya...there is also a news... it is a good news or a bad news i also dunno lah...hehe...
well...i will be going to australia this coming year....2005 may or the end loh...[not too sure lah]
my mum told me about it...not too sure leh...
hehe...hai...i can say that i had recieved a very good present from God for this coming year...[praise the lord!!!]
hehe...=) so happy!!!
so i want to wish that all of us will be lucky this coming year...
all my classmates will get a more better marks than this year...
don't be sad...
remember that sad things will go off one day so why not enjoy everyday!!!instead of remember the sad things!!!hehe...=)
ok lah... i will end here!!!;-) good nite!!! sweet dreams... frenz alway will be better than BGR!!!
issit it so???
haha... bye bye!!!

***haha***

hehe...it came liao... long timenever come and update the blogger liao...haha...
well...this few days around me had alot of things...
i did quarrel with JH... but then now ok liao... i think i know JH more better than last time... haha... ok lah...so happy...
ohya...christmas jus passed...haha...enjoy it alot...and also my cousins and i almost got take down our names by the policeman...
as that day is on christmas eve...then we all meet out steven they all... to go out and celebrate...
and also one more cousin of my...came to our house to stay overnight...haha...then she also almost got caught... haha...so cute leh...
do you guys know what???
i gone to about 3 to 4 celebration leh... so happy... so exicted... hehe...
i got alot of presents and i did gave away lot of presents...
haha... i love giving more than recieving... haha....
OH MY GOD!!!
alot of countries had recieved alot of natural disaster!!!![if i didn't spell wrongly]
alot of people still missing!!!
GOD!!!SAVE THEM!!!
thailand still have 1000 people missing till now!!!
OH MY!!!
so sad leh...
ok lah... i think i will end here... see ya...

***do u guys agree that...what is over is over?***

hi...
i'm back to singapore...
is jus that i'm a little lazy to come over to update...
sorry about it...
do you guys agree that...what is over is really over???
i agree...this time i came back...is jus like everything had change...
change!!!and change alot...
i don't know why do i think so...
is he de one who had change or i'm de one???
i can say that it was jus like the first time we met each other...
don't ask me why...as i also don't know why...
hai~~~as a feeling ba...
ok lah...bye bye...!!!
if not i really have to burst out of tears...

***excited***

hehe...long time never come update liao...hehe...
well...yesterday...alot of my brother's frenz yesterday bring me out to luna park...so cool men...so fun...but some of de games i can't play as i'm scare of high...hehe...then very very de happy...so fun...;)
ok lah...i think i got to stop liao...see ya...i will be going back soon;) hehe...bye bye...

***reach australia liao***

hihi...
it since a long time i came to update this blog...
hm... i think it is about one month???or three weeks???
ahya...not too sure lah...
well...so miss leh...i mean i miss the time i wrote this all!!!
as also that...
haha...jus kidding...jus kidding...
i do miss you all too...haha...ok lah...
well...today i jus reach australia...mm...now in australia it is 10.40p.m.
Oh!!!
but you know now singapore what time???
hm...is about 7.40p.m.
if i'm not wrong...hehe...
WOW!!!cool leh...
haha...ok lah...
well...today i about 12 like this reached here lah...
hehe...ok lah...then after i came to my brother house to put the thing...and other lah...
them we got to the shop... CHISHENG INTERNATIONAL CLOTHING SHOP
this is what it called...ok lah...then my big brother brought my to the library...
then i lent a book...a chinese book...
then i met my god sista...Lina...
hehe...then my brother told me to follow her as she will be bringing me back to the shop...
as my brother have to go and play basketball or don't know what lah... with his frenz...so i follow her back loh...
i chat not that much to her...but i think i know more about her lah...
ok lah...i will end here lah...see ya...i will be going back on 15 Dec 2004...
ok lah...bye bye...remember to miss me hoh...i will miss you guys one...

***sad***

hi...still very sad leh...how???but i believe that she will be really very de upset if she know that we are sad for her...so don't be sad anymore...but be happy...~~SMILE~~ hehe...ok lah...rest in peace my girl...you will always in my memories and my heart!!!=) hehe...ok lah...

tell you guys one thing...the day before i talk with jian hui on the phone...at night...talk talk talk till sleep leh...cannot blame me what...too tired...sorry hoh....jian hui...i'm very very de sorry...=P
then yesterday also...while i'm watching the vcd...i sms him what...then sms till i sleep...=P sorry...then today morning wake up...saw that i got two sms...both also from him one...then reply him loh...then he don't know why then tell me that he had been holding the handphone for the whole night just because of waiting for my reply...hai~~~pro leh...
hey...you TAN JIAN HUI cannot be so silly hoh...always scold me silly...you also the same loh...=P hehe...sorry...say your bad things...behind you....lolx...haha...okok lah...i will stop your bad things here la...hehe...=P

hai~~~so sian leh..today...no $$$ liao...='( so sad...ok lah...i think i will end here liao lah...bye bye...hehe...enjoy your holidays...but the way...a few more days i'm going back liao...so sad...next friday leh...hai~~~ bye bye..

***sad...really very very sad***

hey...today is de second day you leave...still very sad...but i can't cry it out...as if s** n*** knows she will be really very very de sad one loh...but not leave in peace loh...hai~~~s** n*** do you know i really very de sad...really want to cry out...but...='( sorry...i can't bear with it liao...about to burst out of tears liao....S** N***!!!! DO YOU KNOW ALOT OF US REALLY VERY MISS YOU...REALLY YOU KNOW???WHY YOU WANT TO LEAVE US SO FAST???YOU REALLY REALLY VERY DISAPPOINTED US...hai~~~even though i said this so what???can she come back???can she???='( i'm really very sad...sorry....i really can't bear with it liao...sorry...s** n***....i can't stop to do it...

today i went to de place s** n*** jump down...i almost want to burst out of tears leh...on the spot itself....='( hai~~~but i can't let her see as she is watching us...all the people who knows her...s** n*** till now we still feel really very sad...but we shouldn't feel sad but happy for her as we have to respect her decision..but not to say that she is "silly" or "stupid"...as we will support you one...ok???s** n*** since you had choosen this way of yours...really...hai~~~good luck to you liao...i love you alot...miss you...you will always be in my heart... i will remember you...you will be in my memories one...ok???my love s** n***

rest in peace...ok???my dear gal...i will remember this date:28/10/2004...i will....muack...

***sad***

hi...now i can only say i'm very the sad...really very very...miss her too...but what to do???can't help too...=( hai~~~i can't say out what happened...i dont wish to say about it..don't wish to take about it liao...and don't want to say it again in my life...now my lips is closed...and forever close to say this...today i cried...cried alot...i know that that person will be upset that alof us had cried for her...really...but i can't stop not to cry....hai~~~the only way that i can stop crying is...writing a letter to her....and i had already wrote four for her...but i know that it will be alot more to write... don't know why...i really have alot to tell her...alot alot........alot alot........more....really....don't know why...=( now can only respect her choose....her way of thinking of life...really...so the people who know her...and know what had happened...just respect her idea...her choose...her way of thinking...and feel happy for her instead of sad...cuz she had made a choose that will made her happy...but not sad place for her to live in......=) am i right???hehe...so don't be sad liao...she will not be happy...if she saw us were sad for her....ok???=)then to the people who don't know what happened..then better not to know lah...cuz it is not a good thing loh...ok??hehe... now what i want to say is that...i appreciate to know you as my friend...i never regret before...ok???even though the truth can't be change...but you still be in my heart forever...really...and stay there forever...i believe that the other friends who know you will also think so too lah...=) hehe...you are a kind...nice...cheerful...caring...and like to comfort the friends that are feeling sad...really very happy to know you...really...you will live in my memorise forever...ever...and in my heart too...miss ya...and love ya...appreciate to know ya...and be happy...but no more sadness...we will meet one day...=) ok lah...got to go liao...type too long...fingers very the tiring leh...=P hehe...bye bye...

***sad***

hiya...7more minutes to 12a.m...hai~~~then one day had gone liao...=( hai~~~i wish that the period in singapore will be very slow but in cambodia will be very fast....=)sorry..that is what i'm thinking...hehe...hai~~~yesterday jus know the class we are going next year....=)so happy leh...all of us can get in the 2E1 espect one student...so sad leh...i'm still thinking...what if really that person is not in the class liao how???can i take it...as really that person is really a great friend of my...=( OH NO!!! i'm about to cry liao leh...how???='( okok....have to know how to control my tears...my tears had been drop alot liao...hehe...=) ok lah...don't say liao....well well today we went to malay heriage centre...[if i didn't spell wrongly as my spelling always fail one loh....=P]hehe...ok lah...we had alot of fun loh...today i think that person after seen something liao doesn't seen that happy leh...haha~~~can't help...to laugh out loud...=P haha...but too bad i will not say one loh....=P haha...hai~~~now is ready 12:03 liao...i'm still down here...so sad leh...tomorrow still have to go skool...but hoh...i go skool like never go like this...as i have to go for GOLF!!! say till this...i'm so angry meh,,,okok...i think i'm going to sleep liao...haha...bye bye...enjoy your (-_-)zZzZzZzZ see ya...
Oh ya...now today is JOYCE SOONG PEI YEE de birthday liao...see ya...(-_-)zZzZzZzZ have a good night sleep...

***sad***

hiya...it since a long time i never come and update liao ba...hai~~~left 11 more days to go...hai~~~=( what to do leh...can't tell my dad that i don't want to go as he really want me to go leh...hai~~~sad...what to do leh..='( hai~~~sad sad....then...this few days...i had been in school threwing my temper at my friends...sorry leh...you guys...hai~~~i can say that i really very the sad loh...beside have to go back...the most upset me one is...='( what that person had did...hai~~~because of a girl...then the both of us become stranger...hai~~~hate that girl leh...but nevermind...i had been asking myself this...what i had done wrong???why she have to do this to me???i already very upset liao leh...hai~~~don't care liao lah...hai~~~don't say liao lah...forget about it...
hai~~~today my school MT teachers had plan to bring us to different places...in class lah...hai~~~like that teacher leh...even i don't know her name...she is very kind...hai~~~ok lah...later then i come update ok???see ya...

***sad***

hiya...think about three days never come update liao hoh...maybe is that i didn't really touch the computer ba...hehe...in this four days really got alot of problems happened...hai~~~almost everyday is crying ba...='(hai~~~in this three days...we got back almost all our result...then me...in the paper itself...[without counting the overall lah...]i failed three paper...sad leh...hai~~~i study till so hard...still failed two subjects leh...='( so sad...ok lah..don't say liao...
Day: 20/09/2004
today is the day that we got back to school...hai~~~then got back six subjects result...three pass...three fail...sian...the subjects that pass are: maths...geograhy...[at last i pass this subject] and history...hai~~~so happy..that i can pass these three...even though it is not in a really very good...wish very good results...the subjects that fail are: english...[forever will never pass]chinese...[a person that is chinese...fail chinese...pro of me leh]science...[hate it...can't blame me...] hai~~~then i started to cry and cry...when the 1st time i cry that day...is after english period...hai~~~i started crying in the class...then jia qi saw...and i asked her to follow me to go to toliet...hai~~~sad...when i about to go out...jian hui was about to sleep...then when he saw my tears...he faster came up and tell me not to cry...hai~~i know that he cares alot for me...thanks...then xuewen and jia qi followed me out...and xuewen climb the don't know what then see me down there crying...aiya..i don't knwo how to say lah...then it is chinese period...i still crying...but i went back and see take my the exam paper...i know that jia qi they all don't want me to know my marks...so...aiya..don't know to say liao lah...then i started to cry...that day the caregroup...don't know why so gong gong the...aiya...now very sad liao...don't want to say anymore...

***sad***happy***

hiya...
Day: 18 Oct 2004
yesterday night...3 then sleep...as talking to the person...hai~~~after talking with him...don't know why i can't sleep leh...hai~~~so sad...a kind of feeling ba...don't know why...then today leh...tomorrow recieved his sms...he did not sleep for the whole night...WOW!!!pro leh...i can't one loh...if i don't sleep...the next dayi wil be sleeping in whatever i'm doing...
then today leh...12:25p.m. i went to fetch my cousins...three of them... ;-) as i had promised them to fetch them... hehe... =D ok lah...then when i reached there... i met my another cousin...she was with her friend...sally...hehe... ;-) then we went Sun Plaza to eat our lunch...hehe...=) my cousin [Janette] and i share money to bring food...WOW!!! we ate the food till very the full...hehe...=D OH NO...die liao lah...as i had grow fat liao...how???aiya...forget about it...then get scolded by my mum loh...thats all...hehe... ;-) ok lah...nth much had happened ba..hehe...ok lah...i will end...

Day: 19 Oct 2004
;-)hehe...today so happy leh...today morning i went for shepherding...hehe...today i wake up at 8:30a.m. hai~~~so tired leh...wish to sleep...but then can't sleep liao as i have to go my shepherd the house...hai~~~so sad...but nevermind...even though when i'm listening to the teaching i felt very the tired...but at least i know what carmen is teaching me lah...hehe...=P hehe...ok lah...then 11:35a.m. like this...i left carmen house...i went home...when i was on the way home...i met my Junior, her brother and her mum...her mum know mi as she is my Gu Zhen Junior last year...she is a intelligent girl loh...learn things very fast one...at the traffic light met her lah...then her mum told me this..."wow...as you grow older...also grown pretty lah..." oh my...siao liao leh...i'm not pretty at all...i said to myself...as i give them a kind of 2opid face lah...haha...ok lah...then i ran home...;-)
at 12:40p.m. i went to meet my mian yang...at the coffee shop the staircase there...hehe...pro leh mi...then when i reach there hoh...that mian yang havent reach leh...aiyo...but nevermind...as i'm waiting her...i talk with xuewen on the phone...;-) haha...ok lah...then when the both of us reach hoh...others reach liao...they are...
xuewen,si hui,yong xin,deziree,nicholas and KONG KAWAH...
haha...that idiot KONG KAWAH...so the noisy leh...so angry...:@:@:@:@ nevermind...forget about it...say again...then very angry liao...si hui went there to interview for job...as she want to earn money to go and watch the concert and buy MP3...hai~~~but too full liao...then she gone to another place lah...that is last minute one lah...hehe...korea food...hehe...thanks god...=D ok lah... then we went to take photo... i took with Xuewen first then Xing Lin then Yong xin then Sihui then all the people who went and in class 1e1...we all took a photo...so happy...we are so happy... =) hehe...ok lah...i will end here ba...i really enjoy today alot loh...=D hehe...good nite..tomorrow have to go back school liao....see ya...MUACKZzZzZz...

***sad***

hey...sorry leh...today don't have the smiley as my cousin the pc siao siao one...jus disappeared like this...sorry...to make you guys siao...but nevermind...i think this smiley will be back soon...ok???;-)don't worry too much...hai...pc still haven't ok yet...today tried to switch on...then found that it still cannot be use....=( very the sad...hai~~~this is the problem when using the connection of internet...i mean..we share loh...about three to four pc sharing leh..so sad...=( ok forget about it...
Day: 16 Oct 2004
i went to my church...then we had a few performence before the sermen...before the service...i met carmen out first for shepherding...and off course caregroup lah...hehe;-)...then i invited Sandra and Pei Yee down..so happy leh...but so sad that next week Sandra can't come down...=( but nevermind...try my best...by praying...;-) after the service...we went to the starhud...if i'm not wrong to spell so...=P hehe...then we went to watch the free movie in the America Room[Nexus]...hehe...very nice...very funny too...haha...but when it end...Pei Yee, Sandra, Esther, Amirah and i have to go liao...as we are to reach home early...sorry Pei Yee and Sandra...as i can't keep my promise that you can reach home before 8:30p.m. as when i reach home...luckily my aunt is not at home...;-)hehe...if she is at home...i mati leh...ok lah...don't say liao...then when i on the way home...that time hoh...my stomach very the pain leh...don't know why...hai~~~ so sad...don't say liao....
i still not use to this leh...as when i update my blog...i will use the smiley one...but today didn't...wish that i can use it soon...=( but i believe for sure can one...pray to god...;-) haha....ok lah...must have faith to god...then can...;-) haha...=D..
.
Day: 17 Oct 2004
haha...today nth much happened loh...today sleep till 10 plus then wake up...hehe...can know how sleepy i'm ba...hehe...;-)ok lah...then i wake up then go and watch tv loh...then watch watch till dont know when lah...then go and prepare breakfast to eat...;-) eat liao...try my pc loh..then listen to yes 933 and i ly on the bed...then how i know....fall a sleep leh...then sleep sleep don't know till what time...about 1hour ba...hehe...aiya...nth to do liao loh...hurt my the leg again...hai~~forget about it...lah...not serious anyway...ok lah...end here liao...enjoy your day...;-)hehe...bye bye...

***happy***angry***siao***

hi again...continue...hai~~~jus now ask aunt can go...she say a cannot... in a very fierce way leh... sorry my dear shepherd[carmen] sorry...really can't go for caregroup about a few weeks about a month never go liao...if not my that....aunt... forget about it...then jus now went out with my aunt to my the who the house leh...i also forgotten liao lah... then i went to sun plaza to help my uncle to change the thing...i also don't know what it is called...and also help him to lent a disc...wow now then i know that to lent a disc is very difficult... haha...ok lah...then when i reached home..i watch VCD with my the cousin....called then when the show about to finish...very the touching...then i suddenly started to cry leh... don't know why leh...and when i started to cry...cry till can't stop leh...don't know why... maybe is that the show help me to cry out the things that made me upset ba... hai~~~cry about 10 to 15 ba...ok lah...got to end here liao lah...bb...see ya...

***happy***angry***

yeah...today got the last paper leh...and that is art...i think i will not get good results for this art paper leh... hai~~~so sad...aiya...don't say liao lah...at least i got done finish the work... ok lah...today hoh...when i reached home...my aunt and uncle at home...then i told my aunt that i'm going out later...then she said later want to bring me go don't know where leh...then i told her that i'm very lazy to go out....then she started to scold me leh... ok loh...scold scold scold lah...who want to care for her...but hoh..she scold me for i'm want to go out leh...said what...^^^can go out with your friends^^^but cannot go out with me^^^wow...now i'm very the angry liao loh... but then i didn't talk back to her....that's good liao leh...then i told my shepherd ###carmen### about it...but i didn't told her that she want to bring me out lah...but i told her that my aunt don't allow me to go...as i also don't know where am i going to be in...later...hai~~~ how leh...now...don't dare to talk to my aunt liao...later scold me again...but anyway...$$$carmen$$$ told me to pray to god loh...and have faith...ok i will have faith...ok i will ask her at 1p.m. like this...so she may not scold me...but hoh...what if she going to bring me go out how???hai~~~ I DON'T WANT...

***sad***

hi...the second time to update...17more days toward the day i have to go back cambodia... wish that that day will not reach soon...only left 2weeks and 3days...more... hai~~~'wo bu she de' that person...no lah...and off course my friends in singapore... sian leh...what if this time i go and never come back how???the most sad thing liao...but i believe that i will be back...so have to wait for me...wait for the retry of me...ok???promise can??? promise is a promise... this phrase i like it alot... don't know why...
hai~~~wish to sleep but don't have the feeling...as the day is coming again... i'm very the sad leh...wish to lent someone the shoulder to rest on...really very the tired liao... i'm having alot of problems leh...really very very the stress leh... hai~~~forget about it...i will end here ba.. good night...very late liao...

***thanks***

haha...if you are a malay don't know how to read right...its ok..i explain for you lah...it's mean [hey...sweeties] if i'm not wrong loh...haha...ok lah...today i want to thanks god again...he is really a good god... haha...today my blog had change...haha...
have to thanks my dear friend...~~~JOLIE YANG HUI FEN~~~haha...if i didn't spell wrongly...as this blogskin and tag board is done by her...so glad leh...i wish i can be as the same as her...so clever... to my dear~~~JOLIE YANG HUI FEN~~~haha...ok lah...don't want to make you paisa liao lah...well today we got maths paper...and there is a question that is very difficult at first i thought there is a problem with it...but then i to god...then before the ending time i got the working out leh...so happy... haha...well this week really god bless me alot loh... wish that he can bless me to invite friends down...to the service or even caregroup...god...plssssssssss... haha...ok lah...yesterday the JH called loh...then we chat on the phone...then his the father very funny and cute leh...asked alot of question...haha...but nevermind...forget about it... oh ya...yippy today is the last paper...i mean second last lah...haha...today very happy leh..don't know why lah...now is lunch time...wish that i can go and eat now...hai~~~but too lazy liao loh... this is the lazy spirit...haha... so ugly leh...this picture...haha...cute can liao...ok lah...art haven't done all leh...so sad...but i'm too lazy liao what...haha... carrot...haha...ok lah...i will end here...the people in my school...go and do the art work lah....but thanks for sending time to read this....haha...ok lah...got to go...see ya... enjoy your day...