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hi...now i can only say i'm very the sad...really very very...miss her too...but what to do???can't help too...=( hai~~~i can't say out what happened...i dont wish to say about it..don't wish to take about it liao...and don't want to say it again in my life...now my lips is closed...and forever close to say this...today i cried...cried alot...i know that that person will be upset that alof us had cried for her...really...but i can't stop not to cry....hai~~~the only way that i can stop crying is...writing a letter to her....and i had already wrote four for her...but i know that it will be alot more to write... don't know why...i really have alot to tell her...alot alot........alot alot........more....really....don't know why...=( now can only respect her choose....her way of thinking of life...really...so the people who know her...and know what had happened...just respect her idea...her choose...her way of thinking...and feel happy for her instead of sad...cuz she had made a choose that will made her happy...but not sad place for her to live in......=) am i right???hehe...so don't be sad liao...she will not be happy...if she saw us were sad for her....ok???=)then to the people who don't know what happened..then better not to know lah...cuz it is not a good thing loh...ok??hehe... now what i want to say is that...i appreciate to know you as my friend...i never regret before...ok???even though the truth can't be change...but you still be in my heart forever...really...and stay there forever...i believe that the other friends who know you will also think so too lah...=) hehe...you are a kind...nice...cheerful...caring...and like to comfort the friends that are feeling sad...really very happy to know you...really...you will live in my memorise forever...ever...and in my heart too...miss ya...and love ya...appreciate to know ya...and be happy...but no more sadness...we will meet one day...=) ok lah...got to go liao...type too long...fingers very the tiring leh...=P hehe...bye bye...